Rants 002
Tahun ni, sejak involved dengan koperasi sekolah, hidup jadi terisi la jugak. Not that boring same old life all over again, at least. Somehow semua experience tu dah dapat alter otak dengan hati ni untuk fall in love dengan zaman sekolah. Walaupun hari pertama 2012 tu dah sampai berani buat 'vow', I'm not gonna miss school langsung once dah keluar. Haha, semua assumption tu salah. They were all made out of anger, huh? Sebab tu la sounds so desperate.
Haha.
So sekarang ni, life is filled with activities. Sampai dah rasa okay, I am tired doing this and that, rasa nak excuse myself from all these happenings. See? Banyak jugak la kerja yang somehow boleh buat rasa nak give up, nangis laju-laju. Hello, been there done that. I dare say that 2012 is one teary year for me. Kalau tak menangis sebulan, memang tak sah. Stressed out? Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.
Tapi, hmm kalau nak tarik diri from those fun activities, rasa tak sedap pulak. I've made a vow to be a pengawas koperasi and I should get involved, and I am expected to give my utmost effort in everything. Yes, expected.
Tu yang boleh fall apart, rasa tak layak, rasa beban kat bahu ni dah banyak sangat, like,
I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE, I WANNA QUIT!
Yes, pernah sampai tahap tu, serious tak tipu. Tu lah, maybe sebab umur pun makin naik, tanggungjawab pun of course naik sama. Tidur pun makin tak tentu. Study? Hopefully makin elok, sebab dah besar, kena tahu sendiri tanggungjawab nak manage masa dengan co-curricular activities lagi. Cheh, cakap macam sibuk gila mengalahkan orang lain je. Padahal, kalau satu hari tak online, tak sah. That means, you still have enough time to manage yourself. Kalau Allah bagi orang yang berjaya tu 24/7 dalam hidup diorang, awak pun sama je okay? Cuma nak dengan tak nak je manfaatkan masa yang Allah bagi tu. You are not that busy, Amal! Don't make excuses.
Hmm, tolong la ingat surah al-Asr tu. Tiap-tiap hari baca, tapi, tak sedar ke yang you are actually letting the precious time go wasted. And tak perasan pasal saying Sayyidina Ali yang almost tiap hari pandang tu,
Lepas ni, maybe dah takkan dapat rasa kemanisan jadi budak sekolah. Lepas ni insyaAllah you're gonna be left with the real world, alone. Pesan your 17 year old self,
Haha.
So sekarang ni, life is filled with activities. Sampai dah rasa okay, I am tired doing this and that, rasa nak excuse myself from all these happenings. See? Banyak jugak la kerja yang somehow boleh buat rasa nak give up, nangis laju-laju. Hello, been there done that. I dare say that 2012 is one teary year for me. Kalau tak menangis sebulan, memang tak sah. Stressed out? Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.
Tapi, hmm kalau nak tarik diri from those fun activities, rasa tak sedap pulak. I've made a vow to be a pengawas koperasi and I should get involved, and I am expected to give my utmost effort in everything. Yes, expected.
Tu yang boleh fall apart, rasa tak layak, rasa beban kat bahu ni dah banyak sangat, like,
I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE, I WANNA QUIT!
Yes, pernah sampai tahap tu, serious tak tipu. Tu lah, maybe sebab umur pun makin naik, tanggungjawab pun of course naik sama. Tidur pun makin tak tentu. Study? Hopefully makin elok, sebab dah besar, kena tahu sendiri tanggungjawab nak manage masa dengan co-curricular activities lagi. Cheh, cakap macam sibuk gila mengalahkan orang lain je. Padahal, kalau satu hari tak online, tak sah. That means, you still have enough time to manage yourself. Kalau Allah bagi orang yang berjaya tu 24/7 dalam hidup diorang, awak pun sama je okay? Cuma nak dengan tak nak je manfaatkan masa yang Allah bagi tu. You are not that busy, Amal! Don't make excuses.
Hmm, tolong la ingat surah al-Asr tu. Tiap-tiap hari baca, tapi, tak sedar ke yang you are actually letting the precious time go wasted. And tak perasan pasal saying Sayyidina Ali yang almost tiap hari pandang tu,
Never, never will prosperity be reached by remaining idle and lazy.You want your life to be prospered, don't you? Do what you should do. In order to get things right, to fix things that ain't right. Tolong lah. Allah takkan ubah nasib hamba-Nya sebelum hamba tu ubah nasib dia dulu. Sounds familiar huh? You're that hamba, jangan buat tak tau.
Lepas ni, maybe dah takkan dapat rasa kemanisan jadi budak sekolah. Lepas ni insyaAllah you're gonna be left with the real world, alone. Pesan your 17 year old self,
- don't ever forget where you come from (read; Allah and family),
- don't ever forget your aims (read; life and the Hereafter),
- don't forget to get back up when life treats you bad (read; trials and challenges).
Okay, tulisan haywire gila! :O But I love this, anyhoo.
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