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Alhamdulillah. Apa yang saya nak sudah tercapai dan hanya Allah yang tahu perasaan saya currently.  A mixture of disbelief, joy, shock, happiness, grateful etc.  I could never describe this feeling really.  Lepas ni macam-macam yang saya kena tempuh sendiri dan saya tak pasti sama ada saya akan kuat untuk terima semua dugaan yang mendatang. Dan peristiwa semalam, peribahasa yang amat sesuai dengan semalam ialah, Ku sangkakan panas hingga ke petang tetapi hujan di tengah hari. Ya, saya tahu orang risau tentang saya yang punya impian tinggi segunung, yang bukan mudah untuk tercapai tapi istilah 'impossible' itu tak patut diletak sekali. Segalanya mungkin selagi hayat dikandung badan, selagi Allah mengizinkan.  Hanya Allah yang tahu betapa gembiranya bila dapat tahu keputusan itu. Rasa tidak percaya itu ada, tetapi air mata yang hanya mampu mengalir menemani diri yang rasa sungguh tak layak nak dapat yang itu. Tapi, Allah sudah kata "...

The fact that I am going to sit for Add. Maths tomorrow doesn't stop me from turning on this device, you see. It's just because I am super excited of how Allah has treated me! He has been good to me, way too good, not only today, tapi sesungguhnya sejak azali lagi. *Ntah lah, ni cuma catatan. Malas nak tulis dalam diary or anything, the mood of writing by hand tu macam tak ada sekarang ni.* I had Pend. Islam papers this morning. I had to sacrifice my bedtime last night just to cover all the topics. Yes, I know, last minute study will do me no good. Being stressed out and all, I caged myself in this apple-scented room with the company of a few cups of coffee just to avoid myself from collapsing. With the headaches, hunger (read: this happens due to the fact that I thought that by consuming the rice, I'd be wasting my 15 minutes time which I could spend on reading, no?), wearied eyes, confused mouth which rambled unfathomable words, I tried to digest each and every alphab...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. I, Nur Amalina Jamaluddin, hereby asking for forgiveness from all friends, teachers and acquaintances (and of course, my family yang tak tau la baca ni ke tak), sepanjang perkenalan kita. I hope that you'll forgive my wrongdoings for I am a human being too, who's not excluded from all the mistakes and flaws, every second, every moment. If there are somehow things that y ou are not satisfied with or anything at all, feel free to let me know. Tegur saya mana yg salah. Please do so. Cause I always want to be a better mein this world. I want to thank the people who have been there, supporting me along this journey. Without you guys, I don't know what would happen to the present 'me'. Thanks for all the spices of life you've shared with me. God-willing, I won't forget all that. I hope that you'll spend a minute of your time to pray for us, the SPM candidates, ease in facing 'the war' this November, which will start to...

Pesan cikgu kami tadi, "Don't ever stop praying (termasuk lah doa & solat hajat) for your success." Cikgu, I'll remember this. Thank you for the insight. I am pretty sure that this one will go straight into my heart, cause what you told us was all true.  Tiada yang benar melainkan yang benar belaka. And I daresay that it's all up to us now. Whether to take this opportunity for granted or make something out of it.  13 days to go, for the biggest days in my life so far.  This chance will only come once in a blue moon. Take it or leave it, dear. Ignore the distractions please? Because you're worth it, because you have a lot of things that is way more important than the stuff that makes you cry sejak kebelakangan ini,  Allah loves you, seriously. Otherwise, He won't choose you to bear all this. Of all the people, He sees you, He knows that you can take control of your life despite all the problems you're facing now.  Sek...

7As 3Cs, alhamdulillah, tiada E dalam result. Cs for: Physics Additional Mathematics Chemistry I cannot be an engineer ey? Nampak sangat, tidak boleh. Haha, siapa kata aku nak jadi jurutera? Tolong la. But but but, the people keep on telling me to be a doctor. Seriously? Saya kesian kat patients saya nanti, dapat doctor yang tak nak jadi doctor pun. So, tak apa lah, kita tengok macam mana nanti ye? Semoga apa yang diberikan oleh-Nya dapat aku terima dengan redha, amin.

Bismillah. It has been quite a long time since the last post which was during the exam week, ey? Oh, now that I have mentioned the exam, I want to tell you that I am quite happy that my grades are improving. But of course, still, I couldn't get the 10As like I've always craved for. Blame the last minute study anyways. Alhamdulillah for the late night text I got from a loved one who was willing to wake me up. Otherwise, I won't be getting the whoaaah result (it's a whoaaah for me, sebab sebelum ni tak pernah dapat sebegitu rupa). Alhamdulillah for the photographic memory that I have and for these eyes which faithfully accompanied me through the shivering mornings. I am now not ashamed of myself because I did put 85% of my effort on this exam and I got what I deserve. Kalau put 110%, dapat la 10As kan? So, result tu, nanti la bagitau, sebab tak dapat yang penuh lagi. It sure is not something to be proud of for a supposedly pure science student like me, but yeah,...

Sometimes, when it's so hard that you feel like breaking apart, you just have to remind yourself that there are more people who suffer harder challenges in life than you do. . Allah still loves me I guess, that He doesn't allow me to give up on this one subject that I am taking at school. This morning, my teacher called me and asked me to sit in front of her. She noticed that I left so many questions unanswered whilst they should be answered, for the sake of my well-being (hahahaa). Yes, I've made a statement that I hate the subject that I want to ignore it. And now, I regret of what I've told myself, really. :( Mmm, bad bad Amal ey?  I never thought that Allah would show me the signal that I still have the chance to better myself in anything. And the scene of my teacher calling me to ask me to solve the questions in front of her is one of the signs that I can't give up on anything, especially myself . I don't know, this seems pretty normal-and-not-int...

#1 The trail which I have been friends with since 2009 to get to the school.Yes, bushes are everywhere. But alhamdulillah, so far, everything has been made easy for us. No bad things has ever happened to us, thank God! And yes, it's only 4 months away to leave this. #2 This was taken during the holiday class (subject: Additional Mathematics) where I was forced to go into 4 Cerdas (kelas sebelah 5 Arif) because I was the only girl who arrived the earliest. Spending time in this class, capturing some photos hehe. #3 During the holiday class (subject: Sejarah) too. And unfortunately, when we had arrived school, Hawa told us that the class was cancelled. Being stuck in the class because of the rain, we had to wait for quite a long time before being served spaghetti bolognaise by our Chemistry teacher. Waaaa, rezeki!  #4 Kem Matematik PMR 2012. One word: dramatic.   #5 Heaven on earth ey?  #6  #7 Futsal sempena Ha...