Merci, Tuhan.
The fact that I am going to sit for Add. Maths tomorrow doesn't stop me from turning on this device, you see. It's just because I am super excited of how Allah has treated me! He has been good to me, way too good, not only today, tapi sesungguhnya sejak azali lagi.
*Ntah lah, ni cuma catatan. Malas nak tulis dalam diary or anything, the mood of writing by hand tu macam tak ada sekarang ni.*
I had Pend. Islam papers this morning. I had to sacrifice my bedtime last night just to cover all the topics. Yes, I know, last minute study will do me no good. Being stressed out and all, I caged myself in this apple-scented room with the company of a few cups of coffee just to avoid myself from collapsing. With the headaches, hunger (read: this happens due to the fact that I thought that by consuming the rice, I'd be wasting my 15 minutes time which I could spend on reading, no?), wearied eyes, confused mouth which rambled unfathomable words, I tried to digest each and every alphabet in the book into my perturbed mind.
Can you imagine how disturbed I was?
To ease the intertwined me, I tried to listen to some secular songs on my phone, so then aku punggah folder 'Secular Songs' dalam music player. But Allah knows better that I needed not to listen to those unbeneficial songs. What I did instead was listening to some surahs and al-Mu'minun was included. While my eyes read on the lines of words, my ears listened to the surahs being recited. Being the clueless me, I didn't see that the rainbow was imminent.
After I've finished reading the Tilawah & Hadis, I decided to have a 1-hour-sleep or so, determined to wake up at 4.30 am, but Allah knows best. I woke up at 5.45 am instead. And alhamdulillah, I didn't feel outraged or anything similar to that feeling. Knowing that I still had to memorize some verses of Quran, I got up and did some quick revision on that. Anyway, Surah al-Mu'minun is one of the surahs that we should cover on as well. First few ayahs of the surah are quite easy, right? Simple and short. Plus we had frequently read the surah together in class so I thought that it wouldn't be a problem to memorize them. Kira tak ambil berat sangat tentang nak menghafal surah yang satu ni at first.
So, here it goes.
When it was time for me to let go of all the things in the exam hall, something struck me.
Sampai soalan bahagian hafazan....
waktu nak susun ayat dalam Surah al-Mu'minun ikut urutan je, it felt as if I could hear the exact same voice of the man who recites the surah yang dalam phone tu kat telinga ni. Allahu. Rasa nak senyummmmm lama-lama so that I could freeze the happiness and boleh guna the happy feeling whenever I want to.
Okay, maybe it's really not a big deal. But I do think that this is a miracle that He wants to show me.
A sign of something. A sign that I must never give up on myself. When there's a will, there's a way.
Jadi, mungkin lah nampak macam aku menderita malam tu sebab nak menghabiskan bacaan sampai pagi. Mungkin nampak aku ni macam zombie yang makan diri sendiri or whatever you can call them.
Despite all that; the ugly things, Allah has provided a happy ending for me today. The gift.
I came to the school with a smile on my face, and thank God that the smile didn't fade by the time the bell rang.
And it is all because of You, The One up there. Thank you, Allah.
*I hope that this is not me whining about all the unfortunate things that had befallen me. This is merely a story of how He showed me some love, despite all the ash-colored clouds above my head.*
// The bookmark was given by Syahirah and I love it so much! She gave that because she loves me (ahah) and I think that is for the friendship that we share :') I am truly touched!
*Ntah lah, ni cuma catatan. Malas nak tulis dalam diary or anything, the mood of writing by hand tu macam tak ada sekarang ni.*
I had Pend. Islam papers this morning. I had to sacrifice my bedtime last night just to cover all the topics. Yes, I know, last minute study will do me no good. Being stressed out and all, I caged myself in this apple-scented room with the company of a few cups of coffee just to avoid myself from collapsing. With the headaches, hunger (read: this happens due to the fact that I thought that by consuming the rice, I'd be wasting my 15 minutes time which I could spend on reading, no?), wearied eyes, confused mouth which rambled unfathomable words, I tried to digest each and every alphabet in the book into my perturbed mind.
Can you imagine how disturbed I was?
To ease the intertwined me, I tried to listen to some secular songs on my phone, so then aku punggah folder 'Secular Songs' dalam music player. But Allah knows better that I needed not to listen to those unbeneficial songs. What I did instead was listening to some surahs and al-Mu'minun was included. While my eyes read on the lines of words, my ears listened to the surahs being recited. Being the clueless me, I didn't see that the rainbow was imminent.
After I've finished reading the Tilawah & Hadis, I decided to have a 1-hour-sleep or so, determined to wake up at 4.30 am, but Allah knows best. I woke up at 5.45 am instead. And alhamdulillah, I didn't feel outraged or anything similar to that feeling. Knowing that I still had to memorize some verses of Quran, I got up and did some quick revision on that. Anyway, Surah al-Mu'minun is one of the surahs that we should cover on as well. First few ayahs of the surah are quite easy, right? Simple and short. Plus we had frequently read the surah together in class so I thought that it wouldn't be a problem to memorize them. Kira tak ambil berat sangat tentang nak menghafal surah yang satu ni at first.
So, here it goes.
When it was time for me to let go of all the things in the exam hall, something struck me.
Sampai soalan bahagian hafazan....
waktu nak susun ayat dalam Surah al-Mu'minun ikut urutan je, it felt as if I could hear the exact same voice of the man who recites the surah yang dalam phone tu kat telinga ni. Allahu. Rasa nak senyummmmm lama-lama so that I could freeze the happiness and boleh guna the happy feeling whenever I want to.
Okay, maybe it's really not a big deal. But I do think that this is a miracle that He wants to show me.
A sign of something. A sign that I must never give up on myself. When there's a will, there's a way.
Jadi, mungkin lah nampak macam aku menderita malam tu sebab nak menghabiskan bacaan sampai pagi. Mungkin nampak aku ni macam zombie yang makan diri sendiri or whatever you can call them.
Despite all that; the ugly things, Allah has provided a happy ending for me today. The gift.
I came to the school with a smile on my face, and thank God that the smile didn't fade by the time the bell rang.
And it is all because of You, The One up there. Thank you, Allah.
*I hope that this is not me whining about all the unfortunate things that had befallen me. This is merely a story of how He showed me some love, despite all the ash-colored clouds above my head.*
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// I am currently in love with Physics so much, hence the reference book and calculator (but the possibility of getting an A for that particular subject is still not vivid). Let's hope for the best okay!
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