Down the Memory Lane

I still keep the cute lil notes given to me by the Form 5 sisters at that time (Form 1: 2008: KUSESS). Having known the fact that I might not have the chance to meet them again in the future, I gave them 'bunga plastik' with some candies as they had been so nice to me as kakak pantun back then. Didn't expect to be that close anyway. Oh yes, I surely miss them.

And there is this one note given by Kak Mira which I like the most (not that I don't like the others' but her message in it that makes me want to cry right here right now). Oh, yes, I remember that the changing notes session was during Ramadhan/Raya that year. Eh, kejap eh, want to go get the note kejap. 

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To: AMALINA

Selamat Hari Raya

~wish you Slamat Ari Raye

~enjoy la raye sepuas2 nyer sblm awak jd F5

~good luck 4 ur future undertakings

~exam nnt wat btul2

~kte minta maaf klu ade slah silap

~GO 4 PANTUN!!

Yours sincerely,

Kak Mira

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The bold one makes me want to strangle myself. Being the ignorant me, I do remember what has been written in this note, but I don't know, I didn't take the message seriously I guess (all this while)? And now, baru la nak menyesal sebab next week emm but .......

Okay, on the bright side, I am one tough cookie. At least I got the sense injected sekarang rather than when it's very too late, hmm? Tapi, yes, I admit it lah, even now pun dah way too late for a should be pelajar yang betul-betul belajar sebab Him. 

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I love to read people's stories because they are real (unlike the ones purposely made to be showcased to the world on TV: series/movies). Real life experiences, the sugar and the salt of life (?), the ups and downs that they go through, I am somehow motivated by all that indirectly. 

Well, people say, motivations need to be dug from within yourself but when there are times your own soul betrays you, you have to find alternatives, yes? You can't live in the mud forevermore. Somehow, kena cari jalan untuk keluar daripada our own mess.

But then again, He won't change your condition if you don't want to change it at the first place.

Sigh. 

Viel Gluck fur dien Prufung, enough said. Tapi, kalau it doesn't turn out good, just say ''this serves you right" and alhamdulillah. At least, He wants to wake you up by giving something you don't like that at the end of the day, you'll change for the better you (so that you won't meet the thing you don't like tu in the future dah).

To calm you down, sebelum ni pernah je jadi benda ni, kan? And see, you are still breathing and you sure will survive excellently. 

Aku tahu kau boleh. 

And yes, nak pesan ni. Don't even bother to think of what you're gonna be or do in the near future. Not that it's bad or anything, it's a good hobby actually when it doesn't disturb your life in general. Because I notice, you fret too much about how you're going to end up real soon when you should actually use today, right now, to strive for your current life.

with so much love, AJ.