Eid 1433H

But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah knows while you know not. [Al-Baqarah: 216]

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I don't know why (very lately) I tend to restrain myself from meeting people. Be it in this house of mine or outside. Maybe it is because of the way people treat each other that makes me go sick, believe it or not. I am a human being too. I am not excluded from having the left side angel who would constantly jot down my misdemeanors. So it is not an impossible thing that I have done anything wrong towards anybody on Earth. Pardon me, if I have ever done wrong things towards you, okay? Maybe I wrote some crappy things in this blog which don't benefit you at all and such, sorry. 

Like I recently told myself; don't expect things from people. You might get disappointed then. Because you see, people are made of constantly changing heart (read: qalb) which could always go against ourselves. As in, hari ni you rasa happy dengan kawan, tapi esok dia muram je, tapi you end up marah dia pulak sebab dia layan you macam nak tak nak je. 

Again, don't expect but respect.

Sebab maybe kita pernah sayang sangat dekat makhluk Allah ni, kita buat macam-macam untuk bagi happiness kat dia, cakap benda yang dia suka dengar je, to just be there bila diperlukan, to constantly tegur whenever jumpa, buat something sweet for them. Tapi, kita marah pulak bila tak dapat apa yang kita nak daripada orang tu. Macam ni lah (pernah terbaca), rasa sayang/cinta yang tak ikhlas la tu, kan? Sebab kita expect something in return from them, be it appreciation or benda yang sama balik yang pernah kita buat/bagi kat orang tu. 

Tapi kalau kita ikhlas, kita tak kisah pun apa yang orang tu nak bagi/buat kat kita, asalkan kita tahu yang deep down inside, we love him/her. Tak perlu pun dibalas rasa yang sama. 

Sebab macam ayat yang kat atas tu la, mungkin the cold reply that we get from the other party is so dreadful, tapi tu la yang terbaik yang kita deserve. Maybe sebelum ni kita pernah buat benda yang sama kat orang lain, kita treat orang dengan tak elok, so kita dapat la balik apa yang kita buat tu. People say, life is a roller coaster ey? 

Or just maybe, with the unexpected layanan yang kita dapat daripada orang yang kita sayang sangat sangat tu yang akan jadi alarm clock that wakes us up from being too engrossed in the illusion which is made by our own unconscious mind. Alarm clock which whispers, Allah deserves your love, not him/her. 

Apa orang kata? Kalau kita dapat Allah, semua yang lain pun kita akan dapat jugak.

Percaya lah, apa yang ditakdirkan oleh Allah itu tak ada cacat celanya sayang. 

You are the living proof. 

Jadi, percaya lah pada analogi 'ubat itu pahit'. Dapat relate, kan? 

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Your raya is dull? Your raya is just plain boring in the city?

Bersyukur dengan apa yang kau ada atas dunia ni. Kau raya best best kat sini, tapi somewhere out there, there are people who feast on their own bloody tears. 

Bersyukur. Eid celebration in Malaysia is the best you could ever ask for. No hindrance, no war, only peace through and through. 

Tadah tangan, doakan untuk diorang, okay?

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