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Lately, I am having some kind of moods battle in here. At times I am on top of the world, and sometimes I'd be buried deeply inside the ground till nobody can hear me yelling to get some help, but Him :')
Oh yes, I can only say that I am truly grateful because I am one of the people that He chose to just have the faith that no matter what, (come hell or high water) He'll always be here for me. For sure, nobody can beat Him in making me spellbound.
Bukanlah baru tersedar pasal fakta yang satu tu, tapi saya ni mudah sangat lupa. Dan bila terjadi satu-satu kejadian yang sampai boleh buat rasa tak senang di dalam, baru perasan, yang saya tak ada best friend nak confide in, tak ada boyfriend (errrrr) nak bercerita, tak ada orang yang saya rasa boleh baca fikiran saya; pokoknya tak ada sesiapa yang boleh bagi reply yang macam saya inginkan (yes, I am demanding). Of course ada ibu yang memang tersangat faham anak perempuan dia yang satu ni, tapi, masih ada keseganan dalam diri untuk spill masalah hati pada dia. Hmm, boleh nak buat lepak sembang hal everyday life dengan sesiapa, tapi malu sangat nak bercerita panjang, nanti akan berlaku perkara yang tak diingini seperti tumpahnya air mata yang sangat priceless ni?
Sebab saya ni mulutnya tak boleh berhenti kalau dah mula bercerita benda yang saya suka. Rasa macam tak nak stop je kalau boleh.
This what makes me afraid of sharing what's in my mind with a particular person. Because, I don't know what people might think of me, I am afraid of being judged. It is better for me to just keep the things inside from being spilled out, aite? And one more thing, I am just afraid of having to lean on that person. That one person would not always be with me to be my crying shoulder. And at the end of the day, I am the one who'd be disappointed, disebabkan salah sendiri at the first place sebenarnya. Sebab berani berani biarkan manusia masuk dalam hati ni.
So, last night was a pure bliss. Alhamdulillah, rasa loads semua macam terbang macam tu je. Hey, suka.
Tak ada orang yang boleh buat aku rasa macam tu in just a blink of an eye, seriously.
But but but, I'd like to say so much thanks to the people who have spent their time, listening to my ramblings, my waffle, my hikayats and all. Thanks for giving me the advice(s)! Without you, I might not be able to stand here. Alhamdulillah sangat sebab Allah datangkan orang tu, especially seorang kakak ni yang sangat baik boleh layan kepala saya yang tak betul ni.
*Kak Fna, syukran awi!
And now, I am in the process of building that one thing again in the hope of being the tougher more muscular me, insyaAllah. I don't know whether it would make me stronger or even weaker ke apa, tapi, this sure worth a try.
Makanya, ada satu permintaan ikhlas. Tolong hantar doa untuk saya, Nur Amalina Jamaluddin yang bakal menempuh peperiksaan nanti. *Gaya macam ada je orang baca blog ni. Tak kisah lah, tapi, tolong ye? Terima kasih sangat. Sebab ni untuk future saya.
*_*
Again, come hell or high water (quoting Hlovate), He is here.
Oh yes, I can only say that I am truly grateful because I am one of the people that He chose to just have the faith that no matter what, (come hell or high water) He'll always be here for me. For sure, nobody can beat Him in making me spellbound.
Bukanlah baru tersedar pasal fakta yang satu tu, tapi saya ni mudah sangat lupa. Dan bila terjadi satu-satu kejadian yang sampai boleh buat rasa tak senang di dalam, baru perasan, yang saya tak ada best friend nak confide in, tak ada boyfriend (errrrr) nak bercerita, tak ada orang yang saya rasa boleh baca fikiran saya; pokoknya tak ada sesiapa yang boleh bagi reply yang macam saya inginkan (yes, I am demanding). Of course ada ibu yang memang tersangat faham anak perempuan dia yang satu ni, tapi, masih ada keseganan dalam diri untuk spill masalah hati pada dia. Hmm, boleh nak buat lepak sembang hal everyday life dengan sesiapa, tapi malu sangat nak bercerita panjang, nanti akan berlaku perkara yang tak diingini seperti tumpahnya air mata yang sangat priceless ni?
Sebab saya ni mulutnya tak boleh berhenti kalau dah mula bercerita benda yang saya suka. Rasa macam tak nak stop je kalau boleh.
This what makes me afraid of sharing what's in my mind with a particular person. Because, I don't know what people might think of me, I am afraid of being judged. It is better for me to just keep the things inside from being spilled out, aite? And one more thing, I am just afraid of having to lean on that person. That one person would not always be with me to be my crying shoulder. And at the end of the day, I am the one who'd be disappointed, disebabkan salah sendiri at the first place sebenarnya. Sebab berani berani biarkan manusia masuk dalam hati ni.
So, last night was a pure bliss. Alhamdulillah, rasa loads semua macam terbang macam tu je. Hey, suka.
Tak ada orang yang boleh buat aku rasa macam tu in just a blink of an eye, seriously.
But but but, I'd like to say so much thanks to the people who have spent their time, listening to my ramblings, my waffle, my hikayats and all. Thanks for giving me the advice(s)! Without you, I might not be able to stand here. Alhamdulillah sangat sebab Allah datangkan orang tu, especially seorang kakak ni yang sangat baik boleh layan kepala saya yang tak betul ni.
*Kak Fna, syukran awi!
And now, I am in the process of building that one thing again in the hope of being the tougher more muscular me, insyaAllah. I don't know whether it would make me stronger or even weaker ke apa, tapi, this sure worth a try.
Makanya, ada satu permintaan ikhlas. Tolong hantar doa untuk saya, Nur Amalina Jamaluddin yang bakal menempuh peperiksaan nanti. *Gaya macam ada je orang baca blog ni. Tak kisah lah, tapi, tolong ye? Terima kasih sangat. Sebab ni untuk future saya.
*_*
Again, come hell or high water (quoting Hlovate), He is here.
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