Hantu (and hello October)
The ghost of my past has just arrived. It knocks on my door and causes me to tremble hard that I am so afraid I might get infected by the virus it brings about.
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Looking back at the past, I couldn't believe my eyes that I have gone through sooo many silly things which make me ME currently. The Amalina today is waaay too different from the missy left behind. Thank God that He drags me back to the path which I should have taken long ago.
Entah kenapa tiba-tiba masuk mode memory lane dengan A & S kat sekolah tadi. Buka balik cerita zaman jahiliyah (sekarang pun masih jahil, seriously!), revealing the rotten dead bodies inside my closet. I hope that I am not proud of myself back then, the girl who hmmm, was not good, from my personal point of view.
Zaman yang baru nak kenal dunia? Maybe, sebab tu lah perangai macam apa je.
I thought that I have forgotten the memories as I rarely talk about it with anybody. But it turns out that I still keep it, though I hate to talk about it with anybody whom I feel not comfortable to have such a chat.
'Tak sangkanya, Amal,' she said that with an awed expression on her face.
Well, every person on this Earth, walau nampak baik macam mana pun, we still have the past which we are not proud of, which we wish we have never done this and that. And still, though nampak baik whatsoever, you don't know what lies behind this mask I'm putting on. I might not fall on the baik category pun, seriously.
I've been bad. I've done bad things. And I don't know whether I'll be bad, somewhere somehow in the future. Na'uzubillah.
Minta dijauhkan daripada semua itu.
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Looking back at the past, I couldn't believe my eyes that I have gone through sooo many silly things which make me ME currently. The Amalina today is waaay too different from the missy left behind. Thank God that He drags me back to the path which I should have taken long ago.
Entah kenapa tiba-tiba masuk mode memory lane dengan A & S kat sekolah tadi. Buka balik cerita zaman jahiliyah (sekarang pun masih jahil, seriously!), revealing the rotten dead bodies inside my closet. I hope that I am not proud of myself back then, the girl who hmmm, was not good, from my personal point of view.
Zaman yang baru nak kenal dunia? Maybe, sebab tu lah perangai macam apa je.
I thought that I have forgotten the memories as I rarely talk about it with anybody. But it turns out that I still keep it, though I hate to talk about it with anybody whom I feel not comfortable to have such a chat.
'Tak sangkanya, Amal,' she said that with an awed expression on her face.
Well, every person on this Earth, walau nampak baik macam mana pun, we still have the past which we are not proud of, which we wish we have never done this and that. And still, though nampak baik whatsoever, you don't know what lies behind this mask I'm putting on. I might not fall on the baik category pun, seriously.
I've been bad. I've done bad things. And I don't know whether I'll be bad, somewhere somehow in the future. Na'uzubillah.
Minta dijauhkan daripada semua itu.