Looking back
Bismilllah.
(this is a crappy post, warn you)
SPM has officially ended for me on 27th November. Alhamdulillah.
Haaaaaruuuu.
Sebenarnya tak tau nak cakap apa. Padahal waktu exam week tu, tangan ni gatal je nak buka blog, tulis anything. Tapi sekarang ni, azam yang kata at least one post a week tu hilang entah ke mana.
I am now officially a jobless girl in the house. Waiting for the SPM results is surely a tough thing to do when you are reluctant to find a job for yourself, ey? Tanam anggur di dalam rumah lebih baik, at least, for me. It's just that I hate to give commitment. Wuuu that sure sounds pretty bad, really. But being a working girl at this age (I'm not yet actually 17), a big no no for me.
Teringin nak dapat lesen kereta though kat rumah ni tak ada kereta pun kalau nak practise yada yada. Kalau ada rezeki, ada la tu.
And hmm thinking of how would I end up this year. I mean, being a better me or not. I seriously have no idea on that. My life has been utterly crazy this year and this heart in here has sometimes been wrecked by me, purposely and sometimes unintentionally. Talking about being the vulnerable me huh?
I can't help but to have the thoughts on my future. Waaa. Will I be able to get good results for the ever biggest SPM. Will I be able to enter any university. Will I take up the course which suits me the most later on kat uni nanti. Will I be able to study abroad in 2 years time.
Questions questions questions; I really don't have the answers for you, girl.
When it is actually the time for me to leave school, it is hard you see? Thinking of having to leave the school life, of not having the second or third or any other chance dah lepas ni, to repeat all those memories that God gave me throughout my zaman persekolahan tu semua.
Sheesh! Sedih, sangat sedih. Walaupun rasa sangaaaat lah tidak sabar nak jadi bekas pelajar sekolah. Hahaha. But I am quite sure, lepas dah jadi university student nanti, sure merengek nak masuk sekolah balik.
Lepas ni dah tak pakai la tudung putih ber-name tag kuning 'NUR AMALINA' lagi.
Lepas ni dah tak ada nak lepak sembang dengan girlfriends yang gila tahap tak ingat tu lagi (unless dapat masuk uni yang sama which is very unlikely to happen).
Lepas ni dah tak dapat nak jerit dari belakang kelas untuk jawab soalan cikgu Chemistry, Biology, English, Bahasa, Agama etc (annoying me).
Lepas ni tak tau la Amalina ni akan jadi Amalina yang mana. Yang jahil dulu ke, yang wiser ke, yang biasa ke, yang macam mana?
If I were to think of all those things, I'd be dead by now.
Your future is in Allah's hand, Amal.
Who are you to question all that, hmm?
(this is a crappy post, warn you)
SPM has officially ended for me on 27th November. Alhamdulillah.
Haaaaaruuuu.
Sebenarnya tak tau nak cakap apa. Padahal waktu exam week tu, tangan ni gatal je nak buka blog, tulis anything. Tapi sekarang ni, azam yang kata at least one post a week tu hilang entah ke mana.
I am now officially a jobless girl in the house. Waiting for the SPM results is surely a tough thing to do when you are reluctant to find a job for yourself, ey? Tanam anggur di dalam rumah lebih baik, at least, for me. It's just that I hate to give commitment. Wuuu that sure sounds pretty bad, really. But being a working girl at this age (I'm not yet actually 17), a big no no for me.
Teringin nak dapat lesen kereta though kat rumah ni tak ada kereta pun kalau nak practise yada yada. Kalau ada rezeki, ada la tu.
And hmm thinking of how would I end up this year. I mean, being a better me or not. I seriously have no idea on that. My life has been utterly crazy this year and this heart in here has sometimes been wrecked by me, purposely and sometimes unintentionally. Talking about being the vulnerable me huh?
I can't help but to have the thoughts on my future. Waaa. Will I be able to get good results for the ever biggest SPM. Will I be able to enter any university. Will I take up the course which suits me the most later on kat uni nanti. Will I be able to study abroad in 2 years time.
Questions questions questions; I really don't have the answers for you, girl.
When it is actually the time for me to leave school, it is hard you see? Thinking of having to leave the school life, of not having the second or third or any other chance dah lepas ni, to repeat all those memories that God gave me throughout my zaman persekolahan tu semua.
Sheesh! Sedih, sangat sedih. Walaupun rasa sangaaaat lah tidak sabar nak jadi bekas pelajar sekolah. Hahaha. But I am quite sure, lepas dah jadi university student nanti, sure merengek nak masuk sekolah balik.
Lepas ni dah tak pakai la tudung putih ber-name tag kuning 'NUR AMALINA' lagi.
Lepas ni dah tak ada nak lepak sembang dengan girlfriends yang gila tahap tak ingat tu lagi (unless dapat masuk uni yang sama which is very unlikely to happen).
Lepas ni dah tak dapat nak jerit dari belakang kelas untuk jawab soalan cikgu Chemistry, Biology, English, Bahasa, Agama etc (annoying me).
Lepas ni tak tau la Amalina ni akan jadi Amalina yang mana. Yang jahil dulu ke, yang wiser ke, yang biasa ke, yang macam mana?
If I were to think of all those things, I'd be dead by now.
Your future is in Allah's hand, Amal.
Who are you to question all that, hmm?
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| Visiting Along for the 1st time; his 1st semester |
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| Iftar with them |
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| The sibs on the 1st of raya |
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| at Amer Iskandar's, beraya |
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| Hari-hari terakhir at school with deskmate, Farah |
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| With my ibu kedua hehe, Madam Azamima on the grad day |
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| Sending him off for the 2nd semester recently; 2nd Dec 2012 (time ni dah jadi penganggur ngeheh) |
*tears of happiness*
Break a leg for your future, Amalina :)
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