Still recovering and fail

Things happen when you least expect them.

And the way you handle your emotions when the unexpected happens is sure crucial to make sure that everything's just fine (even though it's actually not, deep inside your heart).

Been there, done that. Without Allah, I'll be dead by now. Without Him, I wouldn't be able to put on that fake smile to hide my tears that were welling up in my eyes.

Seriously hati, why are you so easily wounded? Susah betul nak jaga budak yang sedang menaip di papan kekunci ini.  

I expect too much while I don't deserve all the things that I want.

Anger is an emotion that I can handle better than jealousy. Period.

Baru je rasa macam kena jentik sikit, tapi dah berdarah.

Exaggerated, I know. But that's what I've been feeling. Up till now. And I tell Him to make me forget of all the pains and just let the sweet ones occupy my head. Aku banyak meminta padahal aku tak pandai nak memberi. 

And now hati, nikmat (daripada Dia) yang manakah yang engkau hendak dustakan?

(Being over emotional is in my blood. Ignore the usage of improper phrases in this post.)

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(1) InsyaAllah, I'll be taking the computer test for the driving license this Saturday.
(2) I've purchased the password for the UPU thingy but still, I don't fill in the forms (online) yet.
(3) Salam Maulidur Rasul. Allahumma solli 'ala saidina Muhammad.


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