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Bismillah.
Only Allah knows
how nervous I am lately. Only He, who knows how difficult it is for me to sleep
at night these days. This is all happening because of the announcement that the
Ministry of Education made last Friday regarding the SPM 2012 result which will
be out this Thurday, 21st March 2013. Phew *mengelap peluh*
I wasn’t 100% prepared for the SPM which I had taken
November last year. Truth to be told, I only made the revisions for each
subjects exactly 3 to 4 days before the day of the exam. Some of the subjects
yang aku dah macam konon ‘confident’ with myself tu, mungkin boleh kata 2-3
days before the exam itself kot. Wallahu’alam. Allah sahaja yang tahu betapa
degilnya aku yang sungguh berat tulang untuk belajar elok-elok untuk satu
peperiksaan besar yang boleh dikatakan penentu masa depan aku kelak.
This is surely
not a ‘I’m-proud-of-myself-for-having-the-guts-to-do-a-suicidal-attempt-of-flunking-my-own-papers’
confession or anything okay people. Not bragging (of my own silly wrongdoing),
just trying to reminisce my own foolishness L I am a bad girl. Nonetheless, people keep on saying that
I’m not. Hahaha seriously, siapa yang rapat dengan aku tahu lah betapa
banyaknya flaws aku. Hello? Everybody has their own flaws and mistakes that we
surely want to hide from the public view kan? It’s common sense, people.
Everybody wants to present the best of ourselves regardless of how mountainous
our own flaws and mistakes are. By ‘pretending’/’acting’ to be good (yup, we
are all actors, acting on this land as the servants of His), we’ll learn to be
better sebetul-betulnya.
Perangai buruk
seorang pelajar yang aku ada ni memang aku naaak ubah sebab aku tahu, that
won’t do me any good if being practised for as long as this girl is wearing the
‘STUDENT’ title on her head. Jadinya, aku berdoa kepada Tuhan semoga aku akan
sentiasa buat corrections kat diri aku ni. As quoted from Hlovate,
“You’ll never reach perfection because there’s
always room for improvement. Yet all
the way to perfection, you’ll learn to
get better.”
Walk the talk, please?
Insya-Allah!
Praying to God
for Him to give me the feeling of acceptance once the very awaited paper is in
my hands, I really hope that these eyes of mine will only shed tears of
happiness on the momentous Thursday soon. I want to make my parents proud of
myself very badly and for myself to pat my own back, saying that after all the
hardships that He put me through, I can somehow survive the wounds of the
heartaches that I suffered throughout the year. Saying that what Allah has
promised is indeed the truest word that I can rely on.
With every hardship, there
is relief.
I silently hope
that the very next post I’m going to write on is about getting the best result
for me although it’s not 10A+ for me. Cheers!
PS/ Encik
Muhammad Amer Iskandar mesti jadi best student punya! Huh, jealous sungguh.
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