A Few Steps Away

The intention of writing in this blog has always been here since I didn't practise my writing a lot nowadays. Alas, the procrastination often barged in and said to me that I could do a lot of other things instead of spending my time here. But well, now, here I am, writing again due to the stories that I must tell.

Alhamdulillah, I'm finally offered to pursue my A-Level in Kolej MARA Seremban (after days of waiting impatiently). I am only a few more steps away of getting what I really want, insyaAllah!

Today is 28th June and I am supposed to register next Wednesday. I haven't bought most of the things that I'm going to need for college yet and this TERRIFIES me very greatly. I too haven't gone to the hospital for the medical check-up (due to the fact that the official offer letter is not out yet) plus the big  brown luggage that we bought from SOGO is not yet filled with the clothes and God knows what else.

Shortly, I am still not prepared for the big day! 

Before getting quite busy these few days, I ought to say that this might be the last post from home before I'm going to KMS. 

Truth be told, I am quite worried of myself; the girl who has history of getting out of boarding school just because she couldn't concentrate on her studies as she was homesick. But she's now a big girl (and a stronger one perhaps?) who's willing to sacrifice whatever it takes to pursue her dreams in life. 

InsyaAllah, I must be strong for my own sake. To see my parents smiling at me when I'm graduating soon (in 5 years time) is one of the big goals that I want to achieve. Every uneasiness that I would feel soon must be put away as I have to give my utmost focus on the studies. I must not be bothered with all the distractions that might hinder me. 

After all, I must remind myself that this is a once in a lifetime experience that I must make full use of. 

There are some of my friends who applied for MARA sponsorship but they didn't get it. Thus, I must appreciate this blessing that Allah gives me, every day. I can't afford giving in to some unimportant stuffs (playing around/feeeling homesick/procrastinating) because 2 years is all that I have. And insyaAllah, if I am really destined to pursue my degree in the UK, I must remember that if I have to suffer from homesickness, it would only be for 3 years as I'm going to have eternity (ecewah exaggerating!) to enjoy my life in my Malaysia. 

What concerns me the most is the new environment that I'm about to experience in KMS. Even though I have been in boarding school before, I must admit that there must be difficulties for me to get used to being in hostel and such, no? 

Yeah, I know, I am a big fat worrier :( and that's bad, very bad.

Never mind, dear self, I know that you're going to be just fine there. Allah has chosen you to follow this pathway and your obligation now is to study well and to carry out your responsibilities as a daughter, a sister, a student and of course as a slave.

P/s. I am actually feeling quite excited to start studying y'know? I reckon, this is a good sign huh.