'Love Letter'
Bismillah.
(This is dedicated to my dear Nurul Izzah Ariff Ariffin who is currently in Segamat, Johor, studying Computer Science.)
I am sitting here, alone at a place called 'Hexagon' in KMS.
I know that it has been weeks since I left my home sweet home, Kuala Lumpur, to be here in Seremban & it seems like months that I don't write anything here. Life has been quite eventful, truth to be told.
Let me start my rambling and just bear with me please?
It was the 3rd of July that I came here with my parents and brothers (minus along yang kat Jengka tu) and I was so scared & I actually cried silently in the car as I was feeling anxious of being left in an unknown place to me. It was not good at all, that feeling. I have told myself countless times before 3rd July arrived, "You can do it, Amal! You will not cry in front of them." I actually managed to maintain my composure before them, but inside, only Allah knew what was I battling against; my own fear. I cried inside, really.
The fact that we went out quite late that morning made me even more anxious. With big brown luggage, pink pail and a purple plastic container, I questioned myself, "are you really going to study there?".
Frankly speaking, I am still not quite sure myself.
After I was done with the registration procedure and unpacking my stuffs in the new room of mine in Blok Fatimah, we went out to buy a few more things & to have the last lunch together before they went home. My heart was still feeling uneasy and it refused to let go of the people I love.
You know that I am not that kind of girl who is so tough at heart and all that. Amal is just a mere normal girl who constantly craves for attention and affection from people that she loves- especially her mother. That explains why I was so depressed during the first week being here, maybe.
The orientation programme was indeed enjoyable as we got to express ourselves through the activities that the seniors and teachers conducted. Plus, it was a few days without books....yet. We just enjoyed and we didn't have anything to worry about.
It all started again when the academic session finally began. Mood swing attacked me and I often dreamed of home & my family T^T
1) To escape from having to study Science and Math-related subjects is one of the reasons why I applied for A-Level Linguistic in the first place. But unfortunately, the TESL & Linguistic students ought to take Mathematics here. It is the UK university's requirement that we have to fulfil during our 2 years in KMS. I was literally shocked and I felt quite bad as I didn't expect this to happen.
Anyway, every cloud has a silver lining. Allah ada simpan rahsia di sebalik benda ni kut. Jadinya, kita kena reda je lah hadapi subjek yang sebenarnya tak menjadi kegemaran.
If it is Mathematics SPM standard, I would be more than glad to nail it. But it seems like Pure Mathematics is even more difficult than Additional Mathematics that we studied at school a year ago. Huwaaaaa.
The only thing that I can do now is to pray to Allah that He grants me interest in studying Math and finally succeed in getting A for this subject, aminnnn.
2) A-Level students in the college have to take up 4 subjects and for us, the members of class 14.5, we're taking Sociology, English, Mathematics and General Paper (plus Islamic Studies for the Muslims). Every subject has its own speciality and the level of difficulty of each subject is quite high you see? I am not able to elaborate more on this (sebab baru je belajar semua ni 3 minggu) but I hope that one fine day soon, I'll be able to pat my own back and say, "Despite the cries in your heart whining about the studies, you manage to get 15 points today!". Aminnnnnn. Istajibillahumma du'a ana.
It's all about how you manage your own time & setting your priorities every day. Ibadah, homework, assignments, laundry, mealtimes, bedtime etc. If the seniors can do it, if people out there have done it, why can't you? Allah provides 24 hours a day for each and every human being on Earth. Allah knows our capabilities and He will never put us in a condition that we cannot deal with.
Allah destines you to study Computer Science because He knows that is the best for you. The same thing goes for me. Even though it seems difficult & challenging to study all those subjects that we don't favour, Allah knows best that we'll succeed finally.
InsyaAllah!
And oh, the seniors here are sooooo nice! I love the custom here where every time when we finish praying, we will hug the muslimat beside us. It seems like there's no gap between the girls you know?
Aaaaah, how I wish I can hug you right now, Izzah :(
I just want to thank you for always being there when I need somebody to talk to. Thanks for lifting my mood & thanks for having faith in me by giving those soothing words when I need them the most.
When we meet soon, I am sure that there's a lot of stories to share kan?
I pray that Allah will always bless you & may you succeed in everything that you do, aminnnn.
Sending love from Seremban to Segamat.
Assalamualaikum.
(This is dedicated to my dear Nurul Izzah Ariff Ariffin who is currently in Segamat, Johor, studying Computer Science.)
I am sitting here, alone at a place called 'Hexagon' in KMS.
I know that it has been weeks since I left my home sweet home, Kuala Lumpur, to be here in Seremban & it seems like months that I don't write anything here. Life has been quite eventful, truth to be told.
Let me start my rambling and just bear with me please?
It was the 3rd of July that I came here with my parents and brothers (minus along yang kat Jengka tu) and I was so scared & I actually cried silently in the car as I was feeling anxious of being left in an unknown place to me. It was not good at all, that feeling. I have told myself countless times before 3rd July arrived, "You can do it, Amal! You will not cry in front of them." I actually managed to maintain my composure before them, but inside, only Allah knew what was I battling against; my own fear. I cried inside, really.
The fact that we went out quite late that morning made me even more anxious. With big brown luggage, pink pail and a purple plastic container, I questioned myself, "are you really going to study there?".
Frankly speaking, I am still not quite sure myself.
After I was done with the registration procedure and unpacking my stuffs in the new room of mine in Blok Fatimah, we went out to buy a few more things & to have the last lunch together before they went home. My heart was still feeling uneasy and it refused to let go of the people I love.
You know that I am not that kind of girl who is so tough at heart and all that. Amal is just a mere normal girl who constantly craves for attention and affection from people that she loves- especially her mother. That explains why I was so depressed during the first week being here, maybe.
The orientation programme was indeed enjoyable as we got to express ourselves through the activities that the seniors and teachers conducted. Plus, it was a few days without books....yet. We just enjoyed and we didn't have anything to worry about.
It all started again when the academic session finally began. Mood swing attacked me and I often dreamed of home & my family T^T
1) To escape from having to study Science and Math-related subjects is one of the reasons why I applied for A-Level Linguistic in the first place. But unfortunately, the TESL & Linguistic students ought to take Mathematics here. It is the UK university's requirement that we have to fulfil during our 2 years in KMS. I was literally shocked and I felt quite bad as I didn't expect this to happen.
Anyway, every cloud has a silver lining. Allah ada simpan rahsia di sebalik benda ni kut. Jadinya, kita kena reda je lah hadapi subjek yang sebenarnya tak menjadi kegemaran.
If it is Mathematics SPM standard, I would be more than glad to nail it. But it seems like Pure Mathematics is even more difficult than Additional Mathematics that we studied at school a year ago. Huwaaaaa.
The only thing that I can do now is to pray to Allah that He grants me interest in studying Math and finally succeed in getting A for this subject, aminnnn.
2) A-Level students in the college have to take up 4 subjects and for us, the members of class 14.5, we're taking Sociology, English, Mathematics and General Paper (plus Islamic Studies for the Muslims). Every subject has its own speciality and the level of difficulty of each subject is quite high you see? I am not able to elaborate more on this (sebab baru je belajar semua ni 3 minggu) but I hope that one fine day soon, I'll be able to pat my own back and say, "Despite the cries in your heart whining about the studies, you manage to get 15 points today!". Aminnnnnn. Istajibillahumma du'a ana.
It's all about how you manage your own time & setting your priorities every day. Ibadah, homework, assignments, laundry, mealtimes, bedtime etc. If the seniors can do it, if people out there have done it, why can't you? Allah provides 24 hours a day for each and every human being on Earth. Allah knows our capabilities and He will never put us in a condition that we cannot deal with.
Allah destines you to study Computer Science because He knows that is the best for you. The same thing goes for me. Even though it seems difficult & challenging to study all those subjects that we don't favour, Allah knows best that we'll succeed finally.
InsyaAllah!
And oh, the seniors here are sooooo nice! I love the custom here where every time when we finish praying, we will hug the muslimat beside us. It seems like there's no gap between the girls you know?
Aaaaah, how I wish I can hug you right now, Izzah :(
I just want to thank you for always being there when I need somebody to talk to. Thanks for lifting my mood & thanks for having faith in me by giving those soothing words when I need them the most.
When we meet soon, I am sure that there's a lot of stories to share kan?
I pray that Allah will always bless you & may you succeed in everything that you do, aminnnn.
Sending love from Seremban to Segamat.
Assalamualaikum.
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