A New Phase
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Stepping into a new journey in a new place of a foreign land feels rather strange and terrifying. What more with the fact that you are far far away from home which has all the luxuries of life that you have treasured all this while. Living here without your family is difficult and to cope with the unpredictable weather is a whole different story.
I remember the first few days after my arrival in the UK that I found it super difficult to even smile at the wonderful scenery that greeted me here. It was all because of the longing to be in my mother's warm embrace under the hot sun of Malaysia again. HA HA YOU WISH! There's no such thing as a U-turn now for I ought to take the route straight ahead to get to the finish line in time. After all, this is what I've been asking from Allah, yes?
Fa biayyi ala'i Rabbikuma tukazziban. Then which of the favours of your Lord will you deny?
Alhamdulillah that God sends me Aini to make me feel at home. At least I've got somebody to goof around with hehe. I just adore her patience in entertaining my loneliness here. She'd usually just smile whenever I knock on her door for some warmth, both literal and figuratively - yes, my room is a lot colder than hers and she is the one who loves to make my tummy happy by cooking Malaysian food so far. Aaah I pray that Allah gives me strength like hers aminnn.
What I can conclude for now is the lust of men is insatiable. I have always wanted to be here since forever - OK melampau! - but once the coldness of this land creeps in my skin, I am faced with slight emotional turbulence that I felt (notice the past tense?) a tinge of regret. That ill-feeling should be brushed off at once ey? I don't have time to be mellow with my own inner weaknesses huh!
Stepping into a new journey in a new place of a foreign land feels rather strange and terrifying. What more with the fact that you are far far away from home which has all the luxuries of life that you have treasured all this while. Living here without your family is difficult and to cope with the unpredictable weather is a whole different story.
I remember the first few days after my arrival in the UK that I found it super difficult to even smile at the wonderful scenery that greeted me here. It was all because of the longing to be in my mother's warm embrace under the hot sun of Malaysia again. HA HA YOU WISH! There's no such thing as a U-turn now for I ought to take the route straight ahead to get to the finish line in time. After all, this is what I've been asking from Allah, yes?
Fa biayyi ala'i Rabbikuma tukazziban. Then which of the favours of your Lord will you deny?
Alhamdulillah that God sends me Aini to make me feel at home. At least I've got somebody to goof around with hehe. I just adore her patience in entertaining my loneliness here. She'd usually just smile whenever I knock on her door for some warmth, both literal and figuratively - yes, my room is a lot colder than hers and she is the one who loves to make my tummy happy by cooking Malaysian food so far. Aaah I pray that Allah gives me strength like hers aminnn.
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| Eid ul Adha 1436H - 24 September 2015 |
What I can conclude for now is the lust of men is insatiable. I have always wanted to be here since forever - OK melampau! - but once the coldness of this land creeps in my skin, I am faced with slight emotional turbulence that I felt (notice the past tense?) a tinge of regret. That ill-feeling should be brushed off at once ey? I don't have time to be mellow with my own inner weaknesses huh!
My job is not yet done as I still have a looong way to go! I have a dream to fill my 3 years in this land with lots of adventures and wonders so I'll be able to say that I feel content with what I have become so far in life insyaAllah!
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