A New (Masihi) Year: 2017
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Funny how I can now refer to myself as a 22-year-old 'woman' since 2017 has finally arrived. Though I only turned 21 last December (but have always been that old since 26 Rejab every hijrah year - yawns), it is still fun to be 'feeling 22'.
I don't know how to define the adjective fun for you here. Maybe it's fun in the sense that you enjoy having the freedom to decide things for yourself after weighing the pros and cons, consulting few people about that and finally being brave in simply jumping into making that decision a reality? Do all of these count as fun?
But it is not ALWAYS fun, if you know what I mean.
In slowly becoming an adult, you can't escape from making mistakes along the way. And the fear of making more mistakes afterwards? That's even scarier.
For example, being offered a certain kind of positions in some student bodies and you have to give your final say before the end of the month, while having final exam in the middle of that decision-making process. I know that this is nothing to compare with other big things in life that may threaten your freedom in a lot greater sense, but you can say that it's slowly getting harder and harder.
No, I am not complaining. Simply pouring my heart out over the norms that adults have to face on a daily basis. How am I going to cope with life's bigger challenges when these small amateur ones are still bugging my head?
Maybe this is similar to midlife crisis, don't you think? Only that it is associated with teen-aged people who are now becoming adults. They most probably have a term for this already.
Despite all of these (unnecessary) worries that I may experience as an adult wannabe, I should be focusing more on ways to make myself useful for the society. People say; those in their 20s are the ones who should be making (A LOT OF) mistakes so that they can learn more for their future's sake.
This is the perfect time to do silly experiments with any resources that you have and see what works for you. Go discover about yourself; weaknesses and strengths and seek your niche. Stumbling is normal, feeling scared over trivial stuff is normal, but staying idle and simply observing from far is not cool.
May you utilise each and every moment of your life for the benefits of your religion, for people around you, for those whom you love, and insyaAllah for yourself. For your saham akhirat.
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Oh, and we went to Germany and Austria for our new year trip, alhamdulillah. Might write about this soon in the next post - when I am rajin enough to do so.
And I became broke from this. Semoga kewangan makin stabil insyaAllah amin.
Funny how I can now refer to myself as a 22-year-old 'woman' since 2017 has finally arrived. Though I only turned 21 last December (but have always been that old since 26 Rejab every hijrah year - yawns), it is still fun to be 'feeling 22'.
I don't know how to define the adjective fun for you here. Maybe it's fun in the sense that you enjoy having the freedom to decide things for yourself after weighing the pros and cons, consulting few people about that and finally being brave in simply jumping into making that decision a reality? Do all of these count as fun?
But it is not ALWAYS fun, if you know what I mean.
In slowly becoming an adult, you can't escape from making mistakes along the way. And the fear of making more mistakes afterwards? That's even scarier.
For example, being offered a certain kind of positions in some student bodies and you have to give your final say before the end of the month, while having final exam in the middle of that decision-making process. I know that this is nothing to compare with other big things in life that may threaten your freedom in a lot greater sense, but you can say that it's slowly getting harder and harder.
No, I am not complaining. Simply pouring my heart out over the norms that adults have to face on a daily basis. How am I going to cope with life's bigger challenges when these small amateur ones are still bugging my head?
Maybe this is similar to midlife crisis, don't you think? Only that it is associated with teen-aged people who are now becoming adults. They most probably have a term for this already.
Despite all of these (unnecessary) worries that I may experience as an adult wannabe, I should be focusing more on ways to make myself useful for the society. People say; those in their 20s are the ones who should be making (A LOT OF) mistakes so that they can learn more for their future's sake.
This is the perfect time to do silly experiments with any resources that you have and see what works for you. Go discover about yourself; weaknesses and strengths and seek your niche. Stumbling is normal, feeling scared over trivial stuff is normal, but staying idle and simply observing from far is not cool.
May you utilise each and every moment of your life for the benefits of your religion, for people around you, for those whom you love, and insyaAllah for yourself. For your saham akhirat.
*
Oh, and we went to Germany and Austria for our new year trip, alhamdulillah. Might write about this soon in the next post - when I am rajin enough to do so.
And I became broke from this. Semoga kewangan makin stabil insyaAllah amin.
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| Salzburg, Austria (covered in thick thick snow) |
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| Bamberg, Germany (the plan B) |
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