Her Waffle

Bismillah. Even though the clock says it's already 1:50 am, I cannot shut my eyes. The mind keeps on playing the possible things that might occur soon; especially of tomorrow and the nearing June. 20th May huh? Ya Allah... Rasa macam baru je lagi habis SPM. Tup tup dah kena prepare untuk sambung belajar eh? Memang dunia ni dah mendekati pengakhirannya....sangat.  I am offered to spend my 1 year doing Asasi TESL in UiTM Kampus Kuantan but this heart is hoping to be offered to study in Kolej MARA Seremban. I will (insyaAllah) know about the path that Allah has decided for me to take after the clock strikes 5pm and that will be another 15 hours of waiting anxiously. Nonetheless, it will be a worthwhile wait; even if it carries a bad news for me. This is because, the 'kononnya bad news' would be the best path which Allah has decreed for me. ..But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah know...

Keputusan yang dinanti, ditunda katanya. Niat di hati nak skip interview yang di Lembah Pantai sana,  jika pukul 5 hari ni dapat berita baik di mata.  Nampaknya, perlu ke sana juga lah ya? Walaupun terasa malas sebenarnya.  *mengeluh* Tapi, Allah mesti tahu mengapa. Untuk kasi aku peluang doa sebanyak-banyaknya! Harapnya, ini petanda baik lah ya. Kena jadi sabar belaka. Kalau tak dapat yang ini, Allah tahu baik itu yang mana. Semoga tabah, wahai saya!

She didn't agree with my wish of pursuing my studies abroad when I first told her about it. She just knew (and still knows) that I wouldn't bear living thousands of kilometers away from the family, especially her. You're right ibu, I would never stand living so far away from you. Nonetheless, if I were to study here in Malaysia, I would still feel homesick anyway. It is of no difference; whether living in the UK (haaaaa insyaAllah kalau dapat good news esok!) or here. I will still be the 'homesick me'. * I was once wounded by the words of a very significant person in my life, he told me that he didn't want me to turn into a 'bad me' if I were to study at the other side of the Earth. Ibu was the one who consoled me, telling me that he just didn't understand the (burning) desire in my heart to go there. ''Risaukan angah, sebab tu ..... cakap macam tu.'' I couldn't say anything good at that time (because my brain was so f...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. We can only plan but ultimately, the decisions are always going to be His. Alhamdulillah. What I went through last Saturday was very much different than what I had expected. Before going for the interview, I had prepared the possible answers to the   cliche   questions that would be asked and I did some minor research on the course that I'll be taking. Even though I was 10 minutes late on that very morning, I still managed to answer the questions within the 1-hour-time that was provided. Thank God that the comprehension section was quite fathomable and I didn't have to write factual essay, hooray! The oral test/interview was the best part. (Eh anyway, I met my friends from the primary school and one of them was the same girl I met during the MARA test. What a coincidence, ey?  *Eh tapi kebetulan itu mana ada dalam Islam kan* ) Even though a friend of mine told me that I shouldn't talk or blabber on trivial stuffs about myself (durin...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Post-SPM life is quite uneventful. This wasn't the idea that I had on my mind before I took the exam though. Nonetheless, this is the only spare time for me to really enjoy real long vacation at home before pursuing my dreams to be a better me in the future. Therefore, I must make full use of the time left (before crying my heart out once I'm in the university soon hihi). After doing some research on what would I face if I were to study TESL or Linguistic later on, I finally realize that to succeed is a very tough thing to do. People nowadays have the notion that only Science courses are difficult and challenging, neglecting the fact that Arts has its own challenges as well. To tell you the truth, I have also been injected with that particular notion. I often think that to take up TESL is my way of escaping the hard times that I'm gonna have to deal with if I were to study pharmacy, medicine, dentistry, engineering (just to name a few) etc. B...

Bismillah. I am writing here on a fine 18th April morning and this means that yesterday has passed. But I don't know how to put it in what way, whether failing-ly or successfully. When I arrived there, I had to fill in some forms which were supposedly filled at home-but catastrophe happens all the time, don't they? that I had to rush filling in the forms at once. But Allah knew better that I have prepared the significant documents to be passed to them. But still, I didn't bring my latest photograph, so I ended up giving them the only photo that I carried with me which was taken when I was 6 years old -___-" And one more thing, they said that the me in the IC is  not exactly me. Tahu lah muka sememeh macam apa, gelap gila muka dalam tu, oily skin and all, but don't say that right in my face, can you? Sedih tahu, sedih. But just maybe those are some of the signs that Allah would give me the chance to study there? I really hope so. Like He said, with every ha...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. *the internet is very slow and I really don't know whether this post will be published or not* I've applied for MARA's Program Pelajar Cemerlang; Ijazah Luar Negara last month and the result has been announced last week. Alhamdulillah, I'm offered to have an interview session in Kolej Poly-Tech MARA Bangi tomorrow (yes, it's tomorrow Amal, like seriously!). Concerning myself as a 'right-brain dominant', I opted for Linguistic instead of Biotechnology like what I've told some people before. The idea of taking up Biotechnology came when I surfed INTEC Shah Alam's website. I really want to further my studies overseas since I was 15 and Biotechnology sounded interesting to me as I have fallen in love with Biology after taking up Science stream in 2011 (and the fact that I would be sent to USA is another co-factor). Cerita selingan; *After being warned by certain teachers that I would never last a day in the Arts class...